Vjerovatno da postajem pomalo naporan sa pričom o DMT-ju, ali cijenim da je (bar) ovo javljanje bilo vrijedno čukanja po tastaturi.
O čemu se zapravo radi.
Već sam nekoliko puta na blogu spominjao kako bi interesantno bilo čuti o DMT iskustvu slijepe osobe. Par godina unazad vršio sam i istraživanje po netu u tom smjeru, ali sem zapitanosti i zainteresovanosti slične mojoj nisam naišao ni najedno konkretno svjedočenje.
A onda, prije par dana, naletih na ovo:
I had what is probably the greatest experience ive ever had today, and it wasn't even my own, i had a couple points of bundelweed DMT saved in the fridge for a while for this very day, not knowing when it may happen
My buddy Coty was driven up here for christmas by his brother yesterday, he is congenitally blind from birth. He was born with a type of disease i cannot pronounce or spell. He is a frequent cannabis smoker.
When i got up this morning e had a small breakfast of fruit, and then i removed it from the frisge and explained to him what it was, and the process, and that i had a theory....
His visual cortex is completely intact, but he just doesnt have eyes, so he should be able to have a dmt experience, he has never had any true psychedelics before today, as the duration of the experiences put him off from it. My theory was that, never having had the experience of vision , he would not be able to describe what it was that happened, but i would be able to tell if it did based on his reaction.
So...i convinced hi it was worth the 10 minutes it takes, and convinced him he would benefit fro the experience. and if not, hell its only 10 minutes.
I helped guide him down to my pond, i set up some lan chairs as it was in the upper 50s today and sunny, felt really nice. i loaded the bowl, gave it to hi and helped hi light it....he took three huge rips, holding each in probably 20 seconds.
Now Coty usually hold his eyes closed, the only time ive ever seen his eyes was when i first met him, he has to actively try to open them because its a movement he almost NEVER does, he does not have the uscle memory for it so it take effort for him.
as soon as he let out the last hit his eyes opened, not just open they SHOT WIDE open, he leaned onto his knees out of the chair, how he could even move i not sure, but he started sobbing, he cried for about 7 minutes...
As suspected he cannot say anything but one word about the experience, ALL he can say, with sobbing tears, is "so beautiful, so beatuiful, i cant....i dont....its just so beautiful"
This was abut 10 hours ago....hes still asking me if that is what seeing is....
How do i respond to that.....
He cant describe what it is he saw.....but he saw....and hes been blind from birth....
i dont know where i go from here, but we both feel as if we have uncovered something more profound than the experience itself
i just thought i would leave this here as i have NO IDEA the implications of this, and i have no hope of ever getting an explanation of exactly what he experienced fro him, as he has no means of comparisson or contrast....
Šta reći sem da ništa drugo nisam ni očekivao ;))